5. Experiences in my life that has made me sad

I guess one of my experiences in my life that has made me sad is back then when I was in high school and in elementary. First I would like to talk about my days in elementary.

Back then during my elementary days I was what you might called it a “shy yet naughty” kid. I didn’t spoke to anyone unless spoken to. But there are some times when I am very noisy. I remembered back then we have a thing called the “Noisy list” where in when you are noisy your name will be written there, if your name would be written you might get a deduction from your grade or be put into detention. Since I was very noisy all the time my name will always be put in there. That’s the why my grades are low back then. Even though I was very noisy back then, I didn’t have many friends back then. After I graduated in elementary, I studied high school at the same school where I graduated.

High school for me was a struggle. I didn’t have that much friends, I tend to have consistent low grade wherein I am not proud of, and I didn’t have a girlfriend back then which somewhat kind of a big deal because I think I was a bit immature of that time and was not ready for it.

During my junior year in high school, I remembered that there was this girl who I am crazy in love with that I’d do anything just to impress her. I remember bringing flowers to school, giving her chocolate, and even give her my answers in the test. Unfortunately by the time I was planning to court her I realized that she already has a boyfriend, I was brokenhearted that day and it tore me apart. Just imagine after all your hard work for nothing.

Lastly wherein I think is one of my saddest, frustrating, numbest, and psychologically experience of my life was my senior year. It was sad, because like what I have said earlier I didn’t have that much “true” friend. It was frustrating, because I still tend to have low grades which in I am not very proud of and so are my parents. It also made me numb, because of many heartbreaks and the fact I was always getting rejected by girls, the bullying that they did to me, and most of all the isolation that I have experienced. Lastly it made me psychologically unstable for awhile, because who wouldn't be.

Even though I have a rough high school experience I still survived it. I guess high school wasn’t my time. Like what many people have said “Past is Past” and I want it to stay that way.